Hunger pains; hungry man.

Butterfinger for breakfast, oatmeal for lunch, white rice for dinner. This, my friends, is a diet of a dream merchant. My life makes more sense in my dreams, therefore I sleep endlessly into the depths of mid-day. Waking up any earlier than 12 PM is a special occasion. It's so hard to find good work, it's even hard to find bad work. I spend most of my days on a laptop, searching craigslist for opportunity. Hard to get out there and find a job with no money. You need money to survive here, and I'm just barely making it. I have goals, plans, I have a directive. Nobodies really giving me much of a chance though. I always think about packing up my shit and returning hope, but that won't do me any good, I'll be stuck in the same position I'm in now, only difference I'll be living off of mom dukes, and that ain't cool. I'd rather be here, in this beautiful Brooklyn loft, surrounded by my bestfriends, great music, and opportunity. Right now, I'm listening to this beat by Flying Lotus called "another night on the roof." Its really transending, and it makes me feel like I'm on our roof, staring out at the skyline, getting that notion I usually get when I'm up there. Whats this notion you ask? The notion that by the summer the city will be mine. I'm too talented and too handsome to let myself turn into some beggar. It blows my mind with the thoughts I have and the ideas I process, and then, I laugh out loud, because the world has no idea. You, the reader, has no idea. Your not ready for what I'm going to bring to the game. This blog is just a small way of showing off one of my many talents. I'm able to process my thoughts into words, and type them for you to see. If I were to do that, to my dreams, your mind would collapse in half. Far-fetched? Nahhh, not at all. To you, maybe.

Lets shed light on other things. I'd like to say thank you to any and all who read my blog. I know not too many read this but to those who do, I sincerely appreciate your support. I don't have the audacity to call you fans, but once my reign begins I know I can look to everyone for support. I'd also like to, once again, thank my mother for being the greatest and strongest human being on earth. My mother is fighting alot of things. Things such as divorce, addiction, financial troubles, the loss of her 2 daughters, and now, the loss of her son. But I promised that I'd never leave her and I plan on keeping that promise, I just gotta stabilize myself.

There was a point in my life where I cried every night. Life really didn't make sense to me. I was losing everything and everyone around me and I felt like things couldn't get worst, but if it weren't for my bestfriend Brandi, I would've offed myself a while ago. I don't wanna get all gay because I know your reading this, but just know that I love you from the bottom of my heart. Graduate, go to a great school, and start your life the way I know you should.

Man, I've met some great people.

For some reason I felt like I had more to write about tonight, but I guess I don't. If I do I'll just come back and add some stuff. Till then I'll cut this thing off. Thanks for reading.



Sincerely yours.